Life has taken some interesting turns since I last posted. I started school, I'm going for psychology so I can hopefully make some kind of impact on atleast one person's life. Hopefully save them from going down some of the roads I have. I had to take a semester off b/c I don't have the most dependable childcare. It's always offered but there is always another factor to figure in to the equation. It is never as simple as it seems, which is fine, things worth having in life are worth fighting for. So instead of it taking me 4 yrs to get thru school it'll probably be 10 but I'm good with that. Laine and Brycer are both in preschool, Laine on M-W-F and Brycer on T-Th. I can't believe my baby is going to start kindergarten in several months. Time has gone way toooooo fast. This is something I know but still seems to amaze me when I stop and think about how much time has passed.
Speaking of time passing it's been roughly 2½ yrs since Bryce passed away. I haven't stopped to think about in a really long time. He is still constantly in my mind/head but the raw pain has been gone for awhile. I think since I finally let go of the anger I had towards him really helped. I know he would be here if he could and having any anger about that was just stupid. Everyone has to grieve in their own way. The kids talk about him less and less and I struggle with trying to keep his memory alive. They need to know about him but you can just see the pain in their eyes. I just let things go for now. It's hard to know their exact feelings since they are so young. At the same time they are so honest and simple. It's hard for me to imagine a time when everything was so black and white. It is still a day-by-day struggle, but everyday we get a little stronger.
