As time goes on....

The pain someone feels when they go through something like death are not easily put into words.  It is unique to each individual person and everyone has process it in their own way.  It is all a struggle and I think for the most part people find themselves again and resume their somewhat normal lives.  This is not true for all though, some get so low and lost and they let it consume them.  They never crawl back out of the hole they dug and they usually try to bring other's down to their level.  They are over taken by guilt of how badly they treated the person, and think they can some how vindicate themselves.  This is not true and sadly leaves a trail of devastation bigger and more widespread than the actual death.  Learning to cope with this on top of everything else is turning out to be an even greater struggle than I could have ever imagined...so begins my new blog topic...