The last thing i ever wanted....

i write this blog to get things off my chest, to let ppl see a glimpse into my mind and what i'm going thru. i never in a million years thought i would offend anyone. it is not my intentions, and as hard as it may be to believe, this it really hard for me to write. words flow out of my mind but to share them, man, it takes a massive toll on me. the words that do flow don't always make sense, most of them are crazy one second thoughts that i instantly forget about. i don't mean to take anyone else's pain away who's lost someone. i believe it is a personal process and how you choose to handle/deal is your decision. death is death, no if ands or buts. it sucks, it hurts, and it doesn't matter who you loose, your in an unreal amount of pain. i'm sorry to who i've offended, i didn't mean to take away from your experience or make it seem not as painful as mine. please accept my apology.